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During the P.E. there was a sudden onset of an entirely new visual imagery never before experienced by me. It was more like a four-dimensional hologram. I was no longer a separate outside observer looking at an external event, but rather I became a part of the image, being totally enveloped by it. I perceived myself to be at the core. Visual images were very clear, detailed, complex, sharply in focus with high resolution and in color, yet somewhat airy or ghost-like in quality. It was four-dimensional in the sense that images occurred in real time (motion) in an expanding space. The content of the images was dependent to a great extent upon my thought processes. Any question that I posed was answered, at least in part, with a holographic-like visual image. It seemed that all stored memories both conscious and unconscious were being integrated to produce a complete understanding of anything and everything. It is not overstating the perception to say that I felt totally omniscient. It was also my perception that this universal holographic image was essentially complete in all details, and that whenever there was any change in the direction of my thought process, the image itself didn't change as much as did my focus of attention onto some particular aspect of the holographic image. I could mentally zoom in a microscopic or macroscopic direction at will. The entire omniscient experience was much more than visual, but this aspect of it did comprise a significant part of the total. Over time I have evolved in my mind a visual model of the universe that best fits all of the information that I have stored in my conscious and unconscious mind. I alter the image as new information is processed. It is one single image that extends from the microscopic (quantum) to the macroscopic level. The peak experience has resulted in a definite change in my priorities as to what I now consider to be most important. My need to search for truth and achieve a greater understanding of reality has intensified. Since I have had an omniscient experience, I now perceive that there are answers for virtually every question. I now believe that the pursuit of truth as a "Quest in Search of the Theory of Everything" is the most noble of deeds that anyone can perform. This has stimulated me to become more self-actualizing in the tradition addressed by Maslow. At the risk of sounding self-righteous and self-serving, I will describe several ways in which I perceive a change in myself as a result of the P.E. I now find myself making all major decisions on the basis of what is good for both myself and humankind without excluding either in the process. The best solutions to any problem benefit both the individual as well as their society. I have become more tolerant of human imperfection and am less quick to become angry when others fall short of my expectation. Although I have always found aggression, terrorism and war distasteful, I have become adamant in my belief that all conflicts must be settled by peaceful negotiation, whether on an individual or global level. I perceive myself to be a more loving, caring, altruistic person relative to what I was before. I have lost virtually all fear of death and now view it as a new adventure, if not the ultimate experience. I am also left with the impression that anyone who has a P.E. will be affected in similar fashion. If P.E. could be bottled and sold, the planet would be transformed into a much better place. During my more optimistic periods, I like to believe that a peaceful planet arrived at through more and more individuals achieving higher states of consciousness could conceivably be humankind's greater destiny.
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